This week has left me scared. There is no other way to describe how I am feeling.
I am scared for our country;
I am scared for our churches;
I am scared for my family;
I am scared for my friends;
I am just scared.
Over the past couple of months, I have tried to describe what I was feeling, and I struggled with it. I struggled with finding the right words, finding the right emotions, finding the right Bible passages…I just struggled.
This week has brought me great joy…I spent a morning with a room of women (some I knew, some I didn’t) and spoke about contentment (Philippians 4:10-14). It felt so good to be in a somewhat ‘normal’ setting again, following all protocol, connecting with women.
Then, I received a call from a dear friend who was told her heart may not be strong enough for kidney transplant surgery. I was shocked and didn’t know what to say. If there is anyone who deserves a miracle, it is my friend.
A package arrived the next day which contained beautiful gifts but also a journal from the same friend with a note attached, “Please read this before opening the journal.”
I have to say this caused my heart and body to react…
“Why would she send me a non-descript marble notebook?”
“What is this about?”
Then, in the quiet of the night, I read the note and the contents of the notebook and prayed.
The Bible tells us over and over again to pray to the Lord (e.g., Deuteronomy 4:7; 2 Chronicles 7:14; Job 42:8; Psalms 32:6; Jeremiah 29:7; Luke 11:1; Ephesians 6:18; James 5:13; etc.). So, that is what I did, I prayed like Paul instructed the Philippians:
Don’t worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. (4:6-7)
I prayed for God to protect my friend from the enemy.
I prayed for God to heal my friend.
I prayed for God to answer the prayers of many and find a living donor for my friend.
I prayed for God to give my friend another day.
I prayed for God to give me the strength and words I need to lift my friend up.
Yesterday, I received a message from my friend saying her transplant doctor wants to run another test on her heart. The doctor feels there were other issues which would have lead to the results she received. Immediately, I thanked God for another chance for my friend and for being faithful to His humble servant.
When all hope seems lost or your feelings of anxiety or worry are overtaking you, I urge you to pray. Whether you write it down, say it out loud, or just sit, close your eyes, and speak to God…pray.
How can I pray for you this week?